April 29 2025. 8:00 PM.

      I don't have it in me to study any more. This last year has been so hard to keep going. I can't keep up. I'm falling behind. I spend hours staring at the wall because I can't find it in myself to pick up the pen again. I'm just... stuck. And my friends seem to take it so fucking lightly. Burnout as a pop term now to laugh about, to say aren't we all. Part of me wants to just lay on the floor and let my life go to shit. See what happens. 
      
      I miss home. I miss my friends. I miss not being stuck at this desk. I need time to myself.
      
      Tomorrow I am going to sit in the kitchen and eat everything in my fridge until I'm sick.
    

11:30 PM.

    I spent the whole day in autism hell... Everything too loud. On the verge of crying. Couldn't focus. Now I'm finally feeling better and starting to study, and I've got 10 hours until the exam. I'm so tired.  
    
    

April 26 2025. 9:00 PM.

    It's very easy to wallow... She's so pretty I don't know what to do with myself. I feel a little bit like she went and grew up without me. I don't miss when we were kids but I do miss seeing her every day. Sitting down for lunch together. Going to the park just to sit on the swings and talk about League. I'm moving back home for the summer. Maybe this will fix me.
    

April 25 2025. 5:00 PM.

    I'm avoiding watching my recorded lectures for my final on the 30th. It's my last one, then I can pack up and go home. Still need to lock down a co-op position, though.
    
    I'm in a weird limbo about going home. About everything, really. Mainly about Juno. I think all feelings about her are saturating through to every part of my life. God. It's so pathetic of me. 
    
    I ought to tell her how I feel. In-person. Straightforward -- I have feelings for you. I just thought you should know. I just needed to say something. I just had to... What? Get it off my chest? Confess my sins? Something like that. With everything.... Something's gotta give. I have feelings for you. I just thought you should know.
      
    

August 31 2024. 1:00 AM.

    Datemarker of when I began this project. Began because I was moping over my girlcrush. Didn't have anything to say at the time, just... wanted to set something up. Doesn't really matter, anyhow. Still on my same bullshit.